May 14th

The last 4 days or so I have not been well, & hardly eaten. Sick to my stomach from something I ate, or the severe gut pain just below my stomach. So my intake has gone way down. I’m not even really hungry. And the moments I find myself looking at food, I start to get the fear inside me that something bad will happen after I eat. I KNOW THIS isnt a good way to lose weight. I know I have to eat. This is not my plan. Its an odd way to live these days, being afraid to eat. I dont like it.